Saturday, November 6, 2010
A Deep Bow
It was in the middle of all of this chaos that the tap-in occurred--and more than once. The first was when the Aron Chodesh (Holy Ark) was open. It started with a feeling in the pit of my stomach -- kind of an uncertainty feeling but in no way unpleasant -- and continued with an ever-so-brief overwhelming feeling of connection. The hair on my arms were on end, and as soon as I became aware of it, it started to leave me. In a desperate attempt to make the feeling stay, I "tried" to daven it back but alas, that doesn't work. I know that.
Imagine if we all greeted each other from the perspective of one's potential, a person's future becoming. How much more respectfully would be approach our children, our friends, our family members. What if when we interacted with others, we chose to focus on "seeing" them in the light of who they will or may become.
It was during his explanation of this (which I am sure I am butchering) that the last instance of connection occurred for me. It was unexpected (as I was not davening and thus had no intentionality for it to occur). It again was a brief tingly moment of overwhelming connectedness.
I live for these moments and they don't happen often. How strange that in these circumstances it occurred!