Do I have everything I might need? No
Am I sitting on the couch being lazy and deliberately not preparing? Yes
No worries, though. Last time I didn't pack until 1 a.m. the same morning. By 2 a.m., I was sobbing in bed because I couldn't believe I was going to leave my child whom I was breastfeeding. By 3:00 a.m., Rob was explaining to me that if I didn't go to sleep soon, this was going to be a disaster trip. Guess what? I went to bed, I forgot to bring some things but it didn't matter, and everyone survived my absence, even me.
This time around, I am not so anxious about leaving my family. I know they will be okay, and that I am going to have a fantastic time. The only thing I am anxious about is the fact that this is the last subsidized trip in St. Louis available to me so who knows if I will ever be able to get to Israel again.
One thing I am not anxious about is taking a new name in Israel. Even though my rabbi and I have been unable to coordinate a time when we can put something together, I trust it will somehow work out...and if it doesn't, then my back up plan is to just make my declaration on my own.
I am really looking forward to seeing Oshrat and Yisrael. I hope that we are able to spend some time together. I wish I could spend a Shabbat with them or something like that. However, our programming is pretty tight, and if we miss then we get sent home. It looks like Amir and I will miss each other but I am hopeful that somehow, some way we will see each other. *fingers crossed*
We are in the final stretch...Sunday morning is the day...can't wait!