Because I Like to be Prepared

Am I packed for Israel?  No
Do I have everything I might need?  No
Am I sitting on the couch being lazy and deliberately not preparing?  Yes

No worries, though. Last time I didn't pack until 1 a.m. the same morning.  By 2 a.m., I was sobbing in bed because I couldn't believe I was going to leave my child whom I was breastfeeding.  By 3:00 a.m., Rob was explaining to me that if I didn't go to sleep soon, this was going to be a disaster trip.  Guess what?  I went to bed, I forgot to bring some things but it didn't matter, and everyone survived my absence, even me.

This time around, I am not so anxious about leaving my family.  I know they will be okay, and that I am going to have a fantastic time.  The only thing I am anxious about is the fact that this is the last subsidized trip in St. Louis available to me so who knows if I will ever be able to get to Israel again.

One thing I am not anxious about is taking a new name in Israel.  Even though my rabbi and I have been unable to coordinate a time when we can put something together, I trust it will somehow work out...and if it doesn't, then my back up plan is to just make my declaration on my own. 

I am really looking forward to seeing Oshrat and Yisrael. I hope that we are able to spend some time together.  I wish I could spend a Shabbat with them or something like that. However, our programming is pretty tight, and if we miss then we get sent home.  It looks like Amir and I will miss each other but I am hopeful that somehow, some way we will see each other. *fingers crossed*  

We are in the final stretch...Sunday morning is the day...can't wait!


ellen said…

Love the part about forgetting stuff but it not mattering. Been there. Actually...always seem to be there when packing. Packing and panicing just seem to go hand in hand, thanks for the perspective, going to keep this in mind next time I pack.

Wishing you safe travels and an amazing trip! Will look forward to seeing some posts/pix when you get back.